Trusting Me

I don't understand why you don't trust me.
Must be something I'm missing, because
You continue to bust me for
Small things,
Stupid things,
Things I didn't even do.
I don't understand why you don't trust me.
I have good friends.
I make good grades.
I'm a good kid.
I do everything I should.
And everything else that I could.
But all of a sudden,
You call me a sneak,
In need of a tweak,
Even wonder if I'm a losing streak.
Why the switch?
Makes me want to ditch this shit.
Was it a snitch that caused this switch?
I don't understand this switch.
I don't understand why you don't trust me.

You have left me,
Forgotten.
All too busy.
Now I wait at home,
For someone to remember me,
But no one calls.
And I'm left,
Left to wonder,
Who do I turn to?
And I come up blank.

Look at me

I feel so alone.
I just need someone to hold me
Untill everything's alright.

But I can't find that person.

Everyone's too busy to notice,
Or my charade is too good to see through,
The fake smiles,
The "I'm fine"s.

But can't they see the tears in my eyes?

Yes they can,
If they take the second to look.

So please just pause to look.
Look at me.
Thats all I need.

Alone

You leave me.
Left alone.
For boyfriends,
For popularity.

You move.
Leave me.
Year after year,
Someone always leaves.

You forget me.
No calls,
No letters.
But I don't forget you.

You stab my back.
I hear this,
But refuse to believe.
It can't be true.
I trusted you,
And you told.

But it can't be.
Because that means
You're gone too.
And I'm left

Alone.

Must have been a dream...

You don't talk to me.
You look right through me.
I thought it was real,
All the jokes, stories, feelings...
Must have been a dream.

Nothing Lasts Forever

This saying used to be one of my least favorites. It seemed so depressing. When it was mentioned, I pictured friendships, families, bonds of trust, broken and mangled. Not a very pretty picture. I could see the truth in the saying but not the bright side of it. But then I thought of it differently when someone applied it to different topics. Topics like misery, fear, confusion... you get the picture. This changed my view a little. And the saying "Nothing lasts forever" went from a dark message to one of a light at the end of the tunnel. A reminder that there is an end to everything...nothing lasts forever.